Another span of time has passed since my last blog, so much has transpired. On this Thanksgiving weekend, I am reminded of my deepest gratitude for the gifts of the Universe and Divine Mother’s blessings.
Perhaps you remember my July 2017 blog, I was working with becoming comfortable in the experience of uncertainty. Since that time, I have had many conversations with others challenged by the same prospect. We are all interconnected in our human growth and happenings. So how did your challenge of uncertainty work out? Are you still working on becoming comfortable in the unknown? Mine was blessed by Divine Mother yet once again.
Just as I grounded myself in the space of uncertainty mid-summer, everything shifted. An opening happened. This opening became a whirlwind. All that I had been so attached to fell away almost in a blink of an eye. My husband and I had decided late spring to take a pause on building our dream home, even though we had our permits and our general contractor was ready to begin. Costs on the island had skyrocketed again; it seemed the ease of putting our dreams into manifestation became a push. This left me with a deep sense of uncertainty …. Was I really supposed to live here at all? Had all our planning and the blessings bestowed upon us over the previous three years been leading to an unknown goal? I felt anger, disappointment, grief …. and uncertainty. Coming to a place of center once again mid-summer, embracing the uncertainty, the ground moved under my feet.
A new home presented itself, one we had looked at over the last several years but seemed out of reach. It just so happened to be up the street from where we planned to build. Connections and plans came easily … and fast! I mean really fast! The day our purchase offer was accepted, a couple was inquiring about our empty lot, they had been watching it sit vacant since our purchase three years prior. They wanted to buy it if we were interested in selling … two days later it was sold and closed two weeks after that. We had our down payment and the rest is history. We moved into our new home six weeks after the ground shifted under our feet. A true miracle!
Now to be honest, it has taken me a good month and a half to really feel the gratitude for this miracle. The experience happened so fast it left my energetic body in disarray. I was happy of course, and anyone who’s moved lately understands I was tired, but the deep sense of gratitude for this incredible blessing took a while. In the meantime, the Universe brought me to my knees two times.
I literally fell to my knees into a full face-plant … not once but twice during our move. It not only bruised my body but my mind and spirit as well. What was going on? What was the message? Upon deep reflection, and working with my healing touch colleague, it became more clear … Divine Mother had delivered my dream in a new wrapping and I had yet to slow down to express my heart’s gratitude… to fall to my knees in appreciation for this gift. With reverence, I first took time to grieve the loss of our previous dream, walked the land of the property down the street, rested my hand on the boulder, on the trees and said goodbye. I walked the land of our new home and said hello to each plant, each tree, to our view, cleansed our house with sage and blessed it with sweet grass — felt the connection to be present with this amazing miracle. I know we were called to this place … or rather pulled, like a vortex opening, swallowing us whole and spitting us out to watch the sunrise over the waters of Merrifield Cove and behind Mount Baker. It has been such an incredible ride!
So now as I dialogue with others facing the challenge of uncertainty, I have my most recent experience to draw upon. Be quiet I say, be still, breathe into the unknown, let it fill you with curiosity, with wonder; trust. Work your way through the uncomfortable sensations of change, of dreams and plans falling away. Let go of attachment to certainty, to our human timing, to control. Only when these limitations fall away, will the Universe recognize the opening. Perhaps your dream will shift and be realized in a new way, perhaps it will die all together and be reborn. All I can truly say, from my heart to yours, is breathe into the change, let go of attachments, find your bliss in the moment of a bird’s song, a moss-covered rock, an orange sunrise, the touch of a loved one’s hand. Be still, trust the Universe, feel the blessing …. And come to your knees in gratitude when the ground shifts under you.
Because it will. It always will.
~Namaste~
